Countdown to... Holiday...Wedding...Baby 2!

  It's amazing isn't when something in life just hits you like a ton of bricks. Like waking up from a 5 year coma and your entire life has changed, and some parts crashed around you without you even noticing.
  This is what happened to me about 2 and a half weeks ago. I have suffered depression for years and been of and on anti depressants since the tender age of 16 but something 2 and a half weeks ago made me snap. I suddenly realised that NOTHING in my life was panning out how I had planned. I wasn't being the best mother I could be nor the best partner to my husband to be. It felt like I had spent the last 5/6 years numb and the ice finally thawed and I realised that whilst I had been in my little coma everyone around me had just been plodding on. Well when I say everyone I mean the other half and Charlie. I realised our lives were boring and unfulfilled. And alot of it was my fault.
   So I suddenly snapped out of it. I NEEDED to perk up and find a way of being happy. I needed to fix some of the things that were  wrong. Of course there are some things out of my control. But there is one BIG piece of Negative baggage that IS in my control and that is my weight!
  I have been podgy for many years. Mainly from my later teens onwards but nothing compared to when I met my partner. I moved in with him and that was it. I entered the world of  having no parents around to tell me know. We both worked full time and so surplus cash was, not in abundance by any means, but it was there! Calling up and having a takeaway delivered to OUR house felt so grown up (stop laughing I was only 17!!). One take away a week turned into 2 and then to 3 until we were both working 4 /5 late shifts a week and although we would have dinner at work we would stop for something on the way home, stay up until 1am watching TV and then sleep in until 10am. The weigh piled on and falling pregnant in 2009 I put on another 2 stone in the 9 months I was pregnant with Charlie! By the end of my pregnancy I weighed a whopping 20st 3lbs.
   There are of course other things that have contributed to my weight gains however they are rather to personal to write on here.
   So 2 and a half weeks ago something in me snapped. I decided rather than continuing to continue our battle to add to our family which has been going on years I decided to go back on the pill to help regulate my cycles whilst I fought the mission to lose 9 stone. yes you read that correctly I am a whopping great 9 stone over weight! Even losing 9 stone would only just take me into the healthy BMI range! So in my bid to lose weight I needed some support. This came in the form of many friends who I have online who all have children the same age as Charlie but the most supportive of all has to be Mrs B who you can pop and say hi to over at Show and Tell as she, the last 2 Monday mornings has come and picked me up to take me to her Slimming World group. This couldn't have been better for me. I cannot put into words how much better it is to go to a group to lose weight. There is nothing like going with a friend for a bit of healthy competition and having everyone else's losses to celebrate and the sheer fear of having a gain read out ;D to spur you on!
               So in the last to weeks I have Lost
                            Start Weight: 20st 6lbs      Date: 15/8/11
                            Weight Now: 19st 11.5
                 Weight loss to Date: 8 1/2lbs in 2 weeks :D
I couldn't be happier but I really couldn't have done it without going to a group and having the right support network. I have also taken up exercise. Doing a fitness DVD twice a week and just having fun without anyone there to laugh at me is great.
Anyways i shall be sharing my weight loss journey with you all. My first aim is to lose 5 Stone before Our family holiday in April and 7 Stone before our wedding in August and 9 stone before the journey for baby number 2 begins all over again!
I'm excited about this journey. i hope all my lovely readers will help to keep me on my toes. I will Post again when I get my stone award which I hope to get in the next 2/3 weeks. So keep your eyes peeled. When I get my club 10 I will share some photo's with you........maybe :)



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